Rev. Maureen Frescott
Congregational Church of
Amherst, UCC
January 19. 2014
Isaiah 40:1-11; John 1:29-42
“Hearing
Voices”
On
Monday afternoon I was sitting in my office and I was surprised to hear birds
singing outside my window. You may recall that it was 53 degrees on Monday – it
was a beautiful sunny day and I couldn’t resist the urge to throw the window
wide open and revel in the spring like feel of this January day. As I sat there
looking out at the melting snow and feeling the cool air on my face, I couldn’t
help but hear the voice of my late father in my head, sharing the wise words I
heard him speak many times before:
“What are you doing with the
window open in January?
We’re not paying to heat the
outside! Were you raised in a barn?”
It
is amazing how we carry these voices in our heads.
These
voices from our past that seep into our present and our future.
The
voices of our mothers and fathers.
Of
beloved teachers and mentors,
The
voices of caring friends and other influential people in our lives.
These
are the voices, the tapes we play in our head that dispense wisdom and advice,
that urge us to be kind and careful, and tell us to put on a sweater so we
don’t catch a cold.
These
are also the voices that lift us up, urge us on, and soothe our tired spirits
when we feel lost or beaten.
Sometimes
hearing these familiar and encouraging voices in our heads is the extra push we
need to accomplish a difficult task or to get us through a painful time in our
lives.
And
sometimes hearing those voices is not comforting at all, because we’re afraid
we won’t live up to the expectations that they have set before us.
Last
week we heard the story of the baptism of Christ.
Where
John the Baptist pushed Jesus’ head under the water and as Jesus came up for
air the voice of God rang down from heaven, saying,
"This is my Son, the
Beloved, with whom I am well pleased."
We
have to wonder if hearing the voice of God in that moment was comforting or
unsettling for Jesus and John.
For
John, it signaled that the time of his ministry and his popularity had come to
an end.
He
had done what God had intended for him to do.
Jesus
would be the revered one from then on.
We
may wonder if the sound of God’s voice left John feeling joyous, envious, or
relieved.
For
Jesus, hearing the voice of God meant that the time of his ministry had only
just begun.
After
30 years of living in obscurity he would soon have his every word and action
examined, questioned, misinterpreted, and misunderstood.
He
could no longer go home and resume his quiet life as a carpenter’s son.
He
had taken the first step on the long and difficult road that would lead to his
death.
We
may wonder if Jesus found this voice from heaven to be comforting, startling,
or terrifying.
For
Jesus, the voices did not stop there.
As
he stepped onto the banks of the Jordan River, before his hair even had a
chance to dry, John the Baptist gave voice to even more expectations.
“Here is the Lamb of God who
takes away the sins of the world.”
“I have seen and have
testified that this is the Son of
God”
After John’s proclamation, John’s disciples ran
after Jesus, calling him Rabbi, Teacher, the Messiah, the anointed one.
We
may imagine that these are the voices that Jesus carried with him throughout
his ministry.
These
voices that may have both comforted and unsettled him.
The
human voices that named him as savior and messiah,
And
the divine voice that named him as beloved, pleasing, and son.
We
carry similar voices of encouragement and expectation in our heads, replaying
those moments when we felt lifted up in confidence or pushed beyond our comfort
level.
I
wonder if Jesus replayed that moment by the Jordan River over and over again as
well, whenever he felt uncertain or was in need of encouragement.
When
he was facing a hungry crowd of 5000.
When
he was looking into the eyes of a woman who was begging to be healed.
When
he was saw the hammer being raised to pound his flesh onto the cross.
In
these moments, did he hear the voice of God in his head saying,
“You
are my beloved son, and in you I am well pleased.”
Did
he hear the voice of John the Baptist calling him the Lamb of God, the one who
was destined to sacrifice himself to heal our broken world?
Did
he hear the voice of the disciples calling him Rabbi and teacher,
and
did he find comfort in the fact that he had taught them what they needed to
know, and they were ready to continue on their own?
Some
would say it’s not theologically sound to transfer our human emotional
experiences onto Jesus.
Even
if he was both fully human and divine, it may seem diminishing to imagine him
experiencing doubt, or fear, or despair.
But
we know all too well that the tapes we play in our heads both instigate and
feed on all of these emotions and then some, and it is comforting to know that
God, through Jesus, has experienced what it’s like to live with a chorus of
voices in one’s head.
We may
cherish the wisdom and guidance imparted to us by a beloved parent or mentor, but
we often carry the voices of our tormentors as well.
The
voices of those who tore us down rather than build us up.
The
voices of ridicule, belittlement, and shame.
The
voices of our past that say, “You’re not smart enough, you’re not good enough,
you’re unworthy of love.”
The
voices of our present that say: “You’re unqualified. You’re too old. You’re a
bad husband, a bad mother, a bad son or daughter.”
The
voices of our culture that say: “You’re not thin enough. You’re not good
looking enough. You need more money, more power, more possessions to be worthy
of respect and love.”
As
faith communities, we hear these voices, too.
The
voices that keep us from taking risks and walking as the body of Christ in the
world.
The
voices that say, “It’s too hard, it will take too much time, we don’t have the
energy, we don’t the resources, we don’t have enough to go around.”
Psalm
40 urges us to send a different voice in to the world.
The
psalmist cries out to God in despair and God responds by drawing him up from
the desolate pit, out of the miry bog.
The
psalmist writes: “…and the Lord set
my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. He put a new song in my mouth.”
From
our own experience we understand that it’s not the literal hand of God that
lifts us out of the miry bog and sets us on solid ground, but rather it is God
working through human beings just like ourselves.
People
who serve to counteract the negative voices we carry in our heads with voices
of compassion, grace, and love.
People
who act as conduits for the voice of God.
I’d
like to share a story that is familiar to those of who participating in our
Small Group Ministry program. The
theme of this month’s Small Group discussions is ‘Hope’, and the group reading
was taken from Heidi Neumark’s book, Breathing
Space.
Neumark
is a Lutheran pastor who was called to serve a church in the South Bronx during
the 1980’s, when this NYC borough was one of the most impoverished and drug
infested areas in our country. Neumark was young, newly ordained, and her congregation
had only 20 people and no children. But she had hope in the restoration of her
church and the people she was called to serve.
Over
the course of several years the church grew to be a thriving spiritual home for
hundreds of adults, teens, and children in the community, especially for those
who once had no hope that their lives could be different.
Rev.
Neumark writes about a time when a consultant was called in to help identify
potential leaders in the congregation. His advice was to look for people who
already exhibited leadership skills in their family, community, and work environments.
In response, Rev. Nuemark writes:
I couldn’t help but think about the many people I
had met who did not readily fit into any of those categories, people whose
battered lives left them disconnected from family and neighbors, work and
community. People who were depressed. People who were addicted. People who were
too sick and tired to do much of anything. What about them?
It made sense that such persons clearly are not in a
position to lead anything, but it left me deeply troubled because basically it
dismissed a whole group of adults as beyond hope for the foreseeable future.
Neumark
goes on to tell the story of Burnice – a woman who would sporadically stumble
into church drunk and high and who couldn’t be depended on for anything, yet one
day she would become a women’s group leader, a Sunday school teacher, the
president of the church council, and a community organizer who got the drug
dealers banished from her neighborhood.
Neumark
writes:
If I, as a pastoral leader, had looked at Burnice
and thought, she’s a crack addict and she’s a mess, and left it at that, then
the church and community might have missed out on a great leader.
Some future pillars of the church arrive in ruins.
Neumark
admits that a transformation like this doesn’t always happen:
Every addict doesn’t beat his addiction, everyone
who has been beaten down will not rise up, at least not on this earth, but we
never know who will. Our job is to lift up the possibility, the hope, that
everyone will eventually be lifted out of the bog, and find footing on solid
ground.
Too
often, people who feel hopeless and powerless have voices playing in their
heads that reinforce those feelings.
You’re
not good enough. You’re messed up. You’re not worthy of healing.
Our
role as Christians and as a faith community is to replace those negative and
fearful voices with loving and compassion ones.
To
use our voices as conduits for God.
To
speak and act out of love rather than fear.
To
lift up rather than tear down.
To
dream and plan and serve as if we live in a world of abundance,
rather
than holding tight to what we have as if we live in a world of scarcity.
To
actually believe that amazing things can happen when we take a risk and let God
lead the way, rather than the voices in our heads that urge us to be cautious
and frugal.
Here
is the Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world.
We
may wonder what this even means when we live in a world that is still so
obviously broken.
We
may question how Jesus’ life and death served to counteract the fear, violence,
and injustice that exists all around us.
The
good news of the gospel is that God does not expect us to change our world, or
ourselves, all on our own.
We’re
called to sing a new song, and Jesus is the one who teaches us how to sing it.
We’re
called to hear a new voice, and God is the one providing it.
You
are my child. You are beloved. And in you I am well pleased.
Might
we cast our sins onto this Lamb of God – might we lay our brokenness at his
feet and say please take this, we don’t know how to fix it on our own.
And
might we trust that even in difficult times, God is with us, and will set our
feet upon the rock and make our footsteps firm.
Go.
Go and sing…sing a new song.
And
create the world anew.
Amen.
Hi Maureen,
ReplyDeleteI just found your newer blog site! Went to your old site and read about your CPE experience. I am starting in March and loved what you said. I wondered if you still liked CPE by the end of your 12 weeks? ANyway, glad I found you...