The Rev. Maureen R.
Frescott
The Congregationsl Church Of Amherst, UCC
March 5, 2017 – First
Sunday in Lent
Matthew 4:1-11
“Longing for
Lent”
The
40 days that Jesus spent in the wilderness wrestling with the temptations that
the devil set before him has become a model for the Christian life.
The
idea that we are to be Christ-like at all times and resist our innate tendency
to give in to temptation and sin has been a goal and a stumbling block for
Christians across the ages.
The
4th century Bishop, Augustine of Hippo, is often called the Father
of Western Christianity.
But
before Augustine became St. Augustine, and before he entered the monastic
order, he was known for his excessive dalliances with wine and women.
As
a young man he ran with the wrong crowd, boasted of his sexual exploits, and
fathered a child out of wedlock.
Years
later, in his seminal book titled, Confessions,
Augustine admitted that as he contemplated entering the priesthood his most
often said prayer was, “Lord, grant me chastity…but not yet.”
Then
we have Martin Luther, the German monk who kick-started the Protestant
Reformation 500 years ago when he nailed his 95 complaints against the Catholic
Church on the doors of the cathedral in Wittenburg.
Luther
was so obsessed with his own struggle to resist temptation he would often kneel
for 6 hours or more confessing every sinful thought that ever popped into his
head to his fellow priests, much to their annoyance.
On
one occasion, Martin had just completed a marathon round of confessing when he
came running back in because he had forgotten to mention some insignificant
foible. To which the tired and exasperated priest famously replied, “Look here
brother Martin, if you're going to confess so much, why don't you do something
worth confessing? Kill someone! Commit adultery! Quit coming here with such
flummery and fake sins.”
And
then there’s Sophia.
Sophia
is a 3 year-old girl from Cleveland, Ohio, who became an internet sensation
last year when her father posted a video of her adamantly denying that she was
responsible for the bright blue nail polish that had come to be smeared all
over her fingers, all over her bedroom carpet, and all over her Barbie doll.
Through
tear filled eyes Sophia insisted that she was not to blame,
because
Barbie told her to do it.
In
the video you can hear her father calmly saying to her, “Okay Sophia, you’re
telling me that you were playing with Barbie and then out of the blue she said,
“I want you to paint me with nail polish.”
To
which Sophia tearfully responded, “Uh huh, and she said it a hundred times – a
hundred times! - and I kept saying, “Nooooo!”
Then
her father said, “Okay Sophia, but does Barbie know that you’re not supposed to
use your nail polish inside the house and that she could have ruined your
carpet and your bed and all of your blankets?”
And
little Sophia, with tears still streaming down her face, responded,
“I
know! I told her it was a horrible idea but she wouldn’t listen to me!”
No
matter how old we are, or how pious we are, we all seem to do this dance.
This
dance between wanting to give in to our inner wants and desires, and our need
to check ourselves and keep ourselves from doing something that causes more
trouble and pain than any desire is worth.
What
makes this dance so hard is that our desires are by design always weaving in
and out of and conflicting with the desires of others - and the desires of God.
We
desire love, acceptance, security, safety, connection, control –
but
often in our quest to hold on to and satisfy those desires we end up hurting or
taking from others. And when we do that we cause injury to the
relationships we have with others.
Not
always intentionally.
But
because we know God desires for us to live in right relationship with one
another we’re called to take stock of the things we do that cause harm – both
to others and ourselves - and do what we can to bring healing.
As
Christians we’re called to do this at all times, but because we naturally
struggle with this, the Christian calendar gives us a period of 40 days to
devote our attention to this quest for healing.
Admittedly,
the season of Lent is the one season on the Christian calendar that few people
look forward to.
If
we compiled a Christian Calendar Top Ten list and ranked the seasons by
popularity, Christmas and Easter would be up there at the top,
with
Advent and Epiphany coming in a close second, because most people think they’re
just an extension of Christmas any way,
and
somewhere in the middle would be the long season of Pentecost that stretches
between Easter and Advent - the one we call “Ordinary Time” –
the
season few people get excited about because, well, it’s just ordinary.
But
way down at the bottom of the list we have Lent.
A period
of 40 days between Ash Wednesday and Easter Sunday
that
is traditionally marked by prayer, fasting, and penitence for sins.
Who
doesn’t look forward to that?!
I had
a clergy colleague of mine confess to me recently,
“You
know, I really dislike the season of Lent….It’s just such a downer.”
And
in many ways, she’s right.
Lent
calls us to think about things that we’d rather not think about.
Our
mortality - the fact that we are made from dust and to dust we shall return.
And
our sin.
We
may call it our brokenness, our shortcomings, our transgressions, but whatever
name we have for it, it involves admitting that we’ve been less than our best
selves.
And
that’s not something many of us want to do for one day let alone forty.
Especially
for those of us who already lie awake at night thinking about all the ways
we’ve come up short – as we review the mistakes we’ve made over and over again
in an endless loop in our head.
Lent
has also traditionally been seen as a long arduous trudge through 40 days of
denying ourselves something that gives us pleasure, like meat or sweets – or taking
on something that we hope will make us a better person – like a new exercise
routine, or reading the bible more, or a pledge to purge our lives of unnecessary
clutter.
Either
way it’s work.
Which
is why people say they’re taking on a "Lenten
Practice" or "Lenten Discipline." Nobody ever takes on a "Christmas Discipline," which is probably
why it ranks so high on the Seasonal Top Ten List.
The
idea that Lent should be a time of healing and a time of letting go
is
really just a microcosm of what it means to be Christian.
To
be Christian is to admit that God is calling us to a life of constant renewal.
We are to continuously recreate ourselves anew by letting go of fear, and
misperceptions, and the things that we hold onto because we think we need them -
because they help us feel safe and secure – when what they really do is keep us
from building relationships with others, and with God.
I
get why some of us are not feeling in the mood for Lent this year.
With
all the emotions and feelings of division that we’ve had swirling around us in
recent months.
I
know many of us are tired of feeling sad, and angry, and scared and bewildered.
And
it would be nice to just let all of that go.
Lent
is about letting go.
Lent
is not about getting LOST in the wilderness,
it’s
about finding our way OUT of the wilderness.
And
to find your way out of the wilderness you have to first admit that you’re IN
the wilderness.
You
have to recognize that you’re stuck – that you’re spinning your wheels – that
you’re lost in the thicket of despair or anger or just plain busyness.
To
find healing – you first have to admit to yourself that you’re wounded.
To
find wholeness – you first have to admit to yourself that you’re broken.
So
even if on the outside we’re saying, “Oh
I don’t do Lent, it’s such a downer and I don’t want to go there” – on the
inside we’re longing for Lent.
We’re
longing for healing – and wholeness – and relief.
When
Jesus was in the wilderness, the devil tried to cajole him into giving in to his
hunger, dared him to toss himself off a building as a test of faith, and
offered him the chance to rule over all the kingdoms of the world.
Jesus
was able to resist this temptation to give in to his human side and his desire for
security, for power, for protection from harm.
But
we are not Jesus.
We are going to give in to our desires.
And
when we do, we will sometimes hurt ourselves and each other.
But
God does not fault us for that.
God
does not judge us or reject us or stop loving us because we’re human.
What
God desires for us is healing.
So
I would encourage us all to make it our Lenten practice to seek healing.
To
spend some time taking stock of our own pain, and the pain we may have caused
others, even if it was unintentional - and do what we can to make amends.
I
would also encourage us all to spend these 40 days letting go of some of the
things we carry that cause pain and hinder healing.
Our
anger, our fear, our bitterness, our guilt, our desire for control, our
reluctance to admit that we’ve fallen short, because we’re human.
When
you think about it, 40 days is not a lot of time to spend on making ourselves
whole again.
Blessings
to you all on your Lenten journeys.
Thanks be to God. Amen.
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